Today was a big day...

I have known that I was pregnant for a couple of weeks now...
And I have been having this bad feeling. Like the baby wouldn't make it or something was going to go wrong.
& Then on top of that I got flu symptoms, & that scared me, I thought my sickness was going to hurt the baby in some way. Like I really thought I was right.
I was still a little sick today when i went to my doctor's this morning.
But I wasn't really worried that much anymore, so i didn't even bring it up.
It was my 1st pregnancy visit in a while, I had to get blood drawn, & a papsmere :[ ugh ew.
And then Dr. Patel said, well I will go see if you can get an ultrasound today, & I got one!
I was really surprised because with my 1st pregnancy she had to schedule me ahead of time for an ultrasound.
So I am 7 weeks & 1 day.
Due date of February 8th, 2010 - which happens to be the day before mine & jake's 3 year anniversary.
I really wanted Rylee to be in the room to see her little brother or sister, but she was in a bad mood so she went to the waiting room where Uncle Austin was.
And before we started the ultrasound I asked the technician if it was going to look like a baby & she said they start looking like a baby at 10 weeks.
!
Which was when I got my 1st one with Rylee & she was kicking and moving and looked like a really small baby.
But she told me not to expect that this time.
& She was right. The baby didn't move at all.
I kinda wish I could've waited the 3 weeks.
But it's ok because I got to see our baby :]
He or she is 9 milimeters long. & is growing at exactly the rate that it should be.
I could see the heart beat perfectly but we couldn't hear it or time it because it's so early.
Getting the ultrasound made it seem alot more real.
And made me feel alot better about the pregnancy, I don't fear so much that i will lose it after this.
I hope & pray that everything is great for our baby.
I do need to be careful of what i eat now that i am a pregnant vegetarian.
I have to make sure that the baby gets enough protein.
Which won't be hard, i just have to think more about what i eat.
Speaking of food...
I can't hardly stand it, even when I'm really hungry, certain foods that I would normally eat sound like disgusting.
I have lost my appetite almost completely.
Morning sickness hasn't necessarily started yet.
The other day i was gagging for a while but I hadn't eaten so i ofcourse didn't throw up


I do think that this pregnancy will be harder than the 1st because of all the symptoms I am already having.
I am very grateful that I have been given 2 beautiful, healthy babies & i will never take them for granted :]